Sunday, August 08, 2010
okay, i'm back .. been mia-ing due to laziness ... heh
STANDARD luh !
so, i've preety much things to update here, instead of dere ..
yes, i owe 2blogs, but yea, i still prefer and loving my old one ..
secrets after secrets are in here , btol tak btol ? right, craps ! heh
my 2nd night rounds just pass by, next 3rd one is cuming up ..
damn ! i'll not be alone now right ? no right ? i'm praying that the roster will not change ..
if not, i don have any hca's with me .. nooooooo !
sumore malam jumaat kau ! gahhhh ~ ada cikit seram nohh klau buat mlm on thurs, da lah srg2, lagi tertutup .. huhu~
lagi2 klau mlm tu ade berteman ngn seseorg, nyeheheheh ! k, biol ..
so, will be starting puasa soon .. in 2/3days tym ?
i donnoe, i'm excited for it .. but at the same tym, tinking if i can survive working ..
u see, my work is lyke angkat2 patient .. klau ringan takpe uh, confem haus/lapa eh ?
heh, i shldnt be saying all this .. i'm strong, right ?
im sure, i will SURVIVE ! give me atleast uh, 23days of puasa or best still, full mth !
but i noe it's impossible, paham2 luh kan satu minggu tu buat per !
okay, i'm emoing now .. gosh ~ what lah deyy !
i'm having flashback of last two years fasting month .. how much my life changed since than ..
just one big mistake, and everything came crashing down .. [ chey chey ! ]
but really, i didnt expect life to turns out this way ..
i awaes tot that, i'll be able to keep up to my own promises that i've made ..
instead, slalu langgar lari sia !
gahhh ~
and made the same mistakes for the second tym, till i've got nth else to say abt myself ..
i've alr put everiting to a stop now .. tak sanggup lagi !
i'm not gonne be active contacting him,him,him or anyone ..suda fedup !
i have in mind what i'm gonne do for this yr fasting mth .. i'm hoping real hard that, it will come true !
please let it happen ):
and someone talk to me about life ..
enjoying life while im still young ? yes, my SN talk to me abt his experinces in poly etc etc ..
how much he regreted liking a girl for 3yrs, not enjoying life while he can, etc ..
thinking again, maybe i didnt enjoy life that much ..
but mistakes made are too much .. not that much, but still much that i refuses to enjoy ..
i'm just too restricted, when it comes to enjoying myself ..
if just afraid, afraid of anything that might just come ..
talking abt bein naughty, c'mon .. every girls will go thru it !
be it the good one's, or the bad one's [ bad one's suda tentu ! ]
even my ex-boify recently asked me if i've been naughty with other guys, after breaking up with him .___.
kpo king eh tu anak ? HA-HA !
i'll try to change the way i am, and enjoy life while i can after fasting mth, okay?
ahahahah !
okay, this is way too loooong !
gahh ~ i'll stop here ..
i'll be bck when i'm free !
(: