Thursday, January 29, 2009
seriously speaking,this is th worst ward i have ever been attched too !
[ okay, out of three wards ! ]
i mean, some staffs ar okay to work with ..
but some, nahh .. no comments !
got my grade, and that fcuking asshole gave me a just pass ..
imagine, out of 68 .. and i guess u can calculate urself rit ?
divide by half larh gundoooo !
for initiative, he gave me a big fat ZERO !
i did call u for skills larh sial !
participation in patient, he gave me ONE !
babiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii kaper ?
prangai mcm cibaiiiiiii !
and since when did i go for loong breaks ?
fcuk ! this shows how much u trust ur students sia !
and he ask me this, ' ar happy with ur result ? '
and of coz i will say no, rit ? who will be happy with their own result rit ?
yes, i'm not happy with my result, and i donnoe th fcuking reasons WHY !
and for ncp, i've alr did my best .. and end up u still gave me D ..
wtf !
so please, stop been an irritating ass to keep questioning me over&over again ..
fcuker !
and today,
bein th last day .. u still wanne pick on me ?
AGAIN & AGAIN !
seriously, why do u lyke to pick on me ?
nak kate aku terok, dere's another student who is much worst den me ..
btwn me and her, she had more skills not done den me ..
and why are you still picking on me instead of her ?
th mins u came to th ward,
u gave me ur attitude ..
so u wanne see mine, den i'll give u larh ..
tapi end up, kau yng tak bole carry kan !
u asked me wat skills i wanne do, so i said hand restrainers ..
also other skills that i can find ..
and u're not happy with it !
u scolded me .. and ask me to look at you .. wat th fcuk ?
and noeing that i wldnt listen to you,
u called another lecturer ..
she tok to me and stuffs .. and fcuking asshole took a form out ..
so yea, damn fcuking irrittating ..
i was bein forced to sign counselling form !
CIBAI KAPER !
lyke hello, that is onli my SECOND TYM .. and not THIRD okay !
u ruin my mood larh sial !
i was feeling down th whole day ..
yes, i may laugh togethr with em ..
but still, deep inside .. no one noes ..
i keep quiet during lunch break, bukan nyer sengaje ..
but seriously, i'm not in th mood to talk ..
it didnt end dere ..
two hours before we end at 3 ..
this poly CI askd for mitting with th poly and ite students ..
and th ques she askd was abt administration of high conc of oxygen ..
we ans, but didnt noe how to explain .. and its open to th poly YEAR 2 students to ans ..
so u tell me, if poly YEAR 2 cldnt even give a proper ans ..
how can ITE STUDENTS gives her a perfect model answer ?
prangai pon jgn mcm sial arh !
u gave us 1/2hrs to go find th ans, pikir aper senang per nak jmpe ?!
call cikgu bodoh tu pon takder gune ..
guess wat he said wen we calld him, 'so, wat u wan me to do ? '
sial arh ! peh bingit kiter pat ctu ..
so end up we calld another cp lecturer ..
she was kind enuff to give us th way out to th problems ..
very very kind okay !
sometimes, i just wish that i cld get some cp lecturer lyke mdm tan or mdm noorliza ..
instead of hym !
they are kind enuff to help u, and not leaving u dere ..
and will onli come wen u call em !
aper gune sehk klau prngai mcm gtu ?
and th main reason why i cldnt work with him is because ,
i HATE him ! since th dae wen he actualli failed me for my phase test !
*puiik*
i tried listening to songs that can actualli bring my mood back ..
but failed ..
i tried finding&changing my blogskin ,
but still i failed ..
and when i tot that bein at home , i will feel much much better ..
but i'm wrong ! totally wrong !
i need something stronger than that two tings !
everiting is stressing th shit out of me !
i feel lost , serious ..
mcm org tak btol, hilang arah ..
i donnoe whr i'm heading too ..
fcuk !
shitt !
i need some fresh air ..
away from all this shits !