Wednesday, January 21, 2009
great, aftnn shift later on .. was forced to chg one of my shift with hym cause of fri ..
and i agreed ..
so it was ystrd , and i realli regretd it !
thanx for making me cry, mr LOONEY TAN !
okay , i didnt cry .. kat ujong2 jek ..
lagi sipik air mate da meleleh .. hee
saying all those tings wont makes me feels motivated to complete my skills ..
lyke seriously, i doesnt works on me !
i'm onli motivated to do my skills if my CP lecturer is lyke ms rafika, not you !
ugut-ing me lyke bringing me to see mdm phua , doesnt work on me too , mind you !
when i didnt ans u bck , u keep insisting and forcing me on answering u bck ..
and when i did , u ask me all those shit tings that doesnt have th connection with nursing ..
what th fcuk !
for nearly one hour , u wanne talk to me ..
but bein stubborn, i didnt wanne talk or even look at u bck ..
u askd me qns, and so .. i kept quiet lor ..
if i ans bck, later u say i'm rude ..
so what for ?
and u say this ,' if th rest of ur frens cannot finish their skills, it will be ur fault ! ' ..
say this to me , WHAT THE FUCK !
what has that got to do with me ?
u're th one who wanne talk to me , and in th end ..
u blame me ?? what shits ?
and when i wanne do th NGT feedings, u said got not enough tym ..
saying that dere's a talk at 1 ..
yes, we WAITED !
th talk onli starts at 1.40 !
what th fcuk ! what th fcuk !
tell me , in that 40 mins , i can do feedings rit ?????????? !!!!!!!
so yea, dont nag at me again if i didnt find u and do skills with you !
i had enooooouuuuuggh !
let me tell you seriously ,
if last tym in 1.1, if u were to ask me if i'm still interested in bein a nurse, i will tell you ..
the answer is a big big big confident YES !
but now , i'm sorry lorr .. i myself donnoe .. i cant give you th ans ..
i just donnoe what i wan now & i don even noe why i'm here in th first place..
and i'm not those kind of students , who angkat bodek !
i'm not lyke those three peeps , okay yes..
maybe because they are not malays ! biler part diorg , lekas2 bole dtg ..
biler part bdk2 melayu, u will have ur 1001 reasons !
yes, we realised that !
and i just cant wait for this ward 11d posting to end ..
i'm left with only four days , wish me luck ..
and i'm off to old folk's and that ttsh amk ..
, without you !
i have to tahan dere ! bleah !
seeing ur face, and ugut-ing me ..
i had enough !
dere's nth more i cld say now ..
that feeling of wanting to give up is dere ..
but i cant , too bad !
i just cant let her down again .. )':
for no special reasons , i'm stuck to this songs ..
hanya engkau yang mampu by aizat ..
and oh baby by cinta laura ..
no thanks to sis larh for keep repeating that song ..
and it got stuck in my head .. ahahah !
da cukop ..
i hate this cough that i'm having now ..
it's so damn fcuking irritating !
bleah !
i'm goin off now ..
byeeeee ..