what if i realli do what i've said just now ?
yes , i was tinking too ..
meet bitch just now ..
halfwae thru , her bf came ..
when bck at 5.30 ? i donnoe , i don kip track of tym now ..
actually, wanted to went to MARSILING .. yes , i'm not kidding you !
but yes , i was tinking while otw to 7-11 just now ..
.why would i still wanne waste my tym for a guy that doesnt wanne understand or even listen to what i'm gonne say?
.why must i still care about a guy that only wanne have that with you ?
.why would i still wanne tink about hym went he doesnt even tink bout me even for a minute ?
.and most importantly, why do i still love hym aft all that he had done to me ?
tell me , honestly , do i deserves to be treated that way ?
i did no wrongs to you , but yet , u're avoiding me ..
i'm not asking for aniting , not even that ting ..
all i ask for is only to meet you .. is it that hard ?
why do you awaes have to give me 1001 reasons of not wanting to meet ?
i just don understand ..
maybe what she says is true , u're only treating me as ur toy ..
maybe now , i do regret getting to noe you ..
as th tym goes by , i dont tink i ever nid a fren lyke you .. .ur msges ar all fake !
.the day that u alr admit ur mistakes and saying sorry is all bullshits !
.when u said that u're still not over me is all a lie !
.when u said that u still love me is a big big fcuking big lie !
.why do u have to do that ?
.why do u have to hurt me over and over again ?
.tell me , what i've done to make you treat me this way ?
.tell me my dearest friend !
if only because i lyke othr guy before makes u this way , den i'm sorry !
u don expect me to just lyke u only rit ? and u urself ? don ever tell me that u didnt lyke any othr gurls ?
we're just friends , nothing more den just a friend !
and and , why must i wait for a guy who wont be able to give me what i realli want ?
is it worth it for me to wait for a guy lyke u ?
and for sure , i wldnt wanne be a fool to believe in ur words again..
enuff of what u did during th attchmnt period ..
u went out with her , contacting with her(but again , u lied ! ) , and u leave her ..
aft her , you came to me .. get what u've alr wanted , and u wanne leave ..
i've tried to forget abt what i've been told , but i cant !
maybe bcoz i'm just too stubborn to just give in to a guy lyke u ..
once is enuff , lesson learnt .. but still , i just cldnt get over you ..
BLEAH ! if this carries on , i donnoe when its gonne end ..
so , i've decide that tings will have to be this way ..
today will be my very last tym contacting you , and i wont ever disturb or bother u again ..
as what i've send u just now .. and maybe i mean it now !
so yea , take care my dearest friend .. and i'm not hating you , for even a sinlgle bits ..


in one day tym , it's gonne be 2009 ..
and seriously , i just have to move on ..
i just have to stop tinking abt you , cause i'm just wasting my tym and have been disturbing u too miuch..
i have to erase off that damn things that had happened from my mind ..
i'm not trying to be mean .. but i'm just doin what is rit for me ..
i'm truly sorry if what i've did hurt u (but i noe u wont even feel a thing) ..
i love you still , but , maybe i'm just too dumb to understand th real meaning of love ..
and i shld just fcuk off frm ur life ..


all i'm gonne tink abt later in 2009 is ..
nursing ,nurisng & nursing !
nothing more than that ..


YES saliza ..
be strong ! u have to move on ..
no point crying over a guy lyke hym ..
find a better one , but only aft u have achieved what you wanted in err , 2yrs tym ..
YES ! i can do it !
*praying hard*


and i wanne get pre-paid card for now ..
don ask me why ..


nytee !
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